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Sunday, February 20, 2011

HAd & BatAsaN...

Assalamualaikum...
walau setinggi langit mana pun keinginan aku nk main hoki, aku tetap brada kt tepi pdg...nengok mike2 sume main dari jauh...bila start rasa jatuh ati kt game ni, aku xbleh main trus, knape time ni aku t'sungkur sblom aku capai ia???
trek larianku msih pnjg tp aku hmpir rebah d tgh jln, knape?
sedih bila aku kna hadkan pergerakan aku, ikutkn ati mau je aku main puas2 tp camne dgn masa dpn aku? aku sygkn masa dpn aku, xnak hilang upaya terus..uffffff
utk sem ni, lec duk kutuk2 aku tp xpe sbb ati aku tetap jua terhibur... :)
bln 3 nnti klas aku n dak2 junior kna mndaki Guning Tebu, wahhhh, bestnyeee....tapiiii jauh d sudut ati aku, confirm aku xdpt naik, mesti doktor xbg... :( dan maka hancurlah harapan aku nk join diorg...huhu
walau sdaya upaya mcm mna pun aku try, ttp ada batasan..ada limit...wuuuuu,i can't running, jumping n so on anymore..just like i'm useful, nothing, meaningless...my life worse!!
sometimes i feel give up for what happen to me but i try to think that was the test from The Almighty..i must praise for Him coz He still make me can walk eventhough i can't run just like before...... :(
maybe when i'm sick, i'm can always remember Him as my creator..
well i will try to adapt myself with all of this eventhough i feel sick that i can active too much anymore...huhu
well, you just know to laugh at me but don't know tp understand me...could you understand me, we have known many years but you just the way you are...ok, fine..i understand who are u and who are me...
i just wanna play coz i'm sick of my situation..i need to release my burden that i shouldn't receive it..
i hope someday i can forget u as what i feel right know but i will remember u as what u think who are me to u..
ok, i understand and more understand about u.. there is a limit..
why i can't be myself, i need to continue my life without have any relation with u, my life that empty is good for me.. let it be empty and continue to empty...just like a glass without any water on it...
alright, i think better i stop now..i got headache..need to rest
Wassalam...

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